Thursday, April 19, 2012

The Inspiration

This song is what inspired the below post. The first time I heard it I was fourteen. How can the past seem so distant yet close at the same time?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pb-K2tXWK4w&ob=av2n

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

The Ripe Old Age of Fifteen

When I was fifteen I had my whole life figured out. My plans had been made, and I was sure nothing would go wrong with them. I was pretty certain I knew who I was as a person. I couldn't see how I would change in any way. Sometimes though, it seemed like I would never go on a date or have a boyfriend. At times, I thought when that happened I would always be happy and confident. I wanted so bad to be wanted. When I was fifteen, I couldn't wait to graduate. I wanted to leave. I wanted adventure. I wanted to be 'free'.
Now I'm seventeen. I'm getting ready to graduate, and that fact often terrifies me. My longing for adventure has greatly diminished. I've become a homebody. To say I've changed since fifteen could be an understatement. But I'm very happy with who I am. I have gone on those magical dates (often more awkward then magical), and they are now often occurrences in my life. However, I laugh at my mistaken view of what having a boyfriend would be like. Yes, it is wonderful, but that doesn't mean life is perfect. I still stress out, have mood swings, and bad days. They all add up to some interesting conversations with him at times.
Fifteen was a rough year, but one I'm thankful for. To all the girls who are going through that, I can assure you it will get better. There is a high chance it'll get worse before better, but it will happen. Just remember: the art of laughing at yourself is a great one, it's ok to become angry and upset sometimes, you're a wonderful, beautiful person, and there is a God who cares deeply for you. And don't forget to thank Him for the life you have right now, because it's all going to change at some point.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Confessions of a High School Senior

Why did I decide to write this post? Well, I thought of it, and needed to update my blog. Seemed like a good reason to me.

1- I feel no guilt or sadness in defrosting and feeding the owl baby chickens on a weekly basis.
2- My sister and I have rocked out to a Justin Bieber song in the middle of a restaurant. It was at that point we decided we had been spending too much time with middle schoolers. I know some of you are thinking, "It's possible to rock out to Justin Bieber?" Indeed it is my friend, indeed it is.
3- I'm a wimp when it comes to thunder storms.
4- I can be a tad ditzy sometimes.
5- When I was twelve I rode a kid roller-coaster and was scared. Mom refuses to let me live it down.
6- I have seen almost all of the Disney channel movies, and usually enjoyed them. They happened to normally come on at the same time Grandma went to bed.
7- I sometimes dress like a total hippie. I do fit in at the organic market place though.
8- For some reason I hate loading music on my mp3 player. Laura does it for me.
9- There is a fairy calender hanging on my bedroom wall.
10- I think clip-in colorful hair extensions can be really pretty.